PM, this one is for you :)

17^th of April, around 7:30pm, on the 7pm Sunday Service at Victory Fort.

I was sitting there, at the first row, left most side (if coming from the door), on the first chair from the aisle, all alone. And there you were, standing in the middle of the stage, wearing your folded long sleeves polo and you slacks; all eyes and ears were on you (including me of course). Some may have known you already at that time, but not me.

The time that you stepped on that stage, I was smitten by your presence. J That very moment, I whispered, “Cutie si Pastor”. I was surprised when you introduced your mom and your stepdad and I presumed that you are single and not in relationship (I’m still keeping my fingers crossed that you are as I am writing this blog). As I looked at you from my chair, I whispered again, “Are you the JC de Vera of my life?” Only few people knew that I have a crush on JC de Vera and every time that I see you, you remind me of him. And as I listened as you preached the word and cite little things about you, I was amazed. You are such a good speaker and preacher. You seem to be so smart and witty; so serious yet has a good sense of humor. I have a feeling that we can talk anything under the sun. At that time I realized you have already captivated my heart. J

After the service, I thought that would be the last time that I’d be seeing you, coz I know you were just a substitute pastor for that day since Pastor P was not around. I know that you would be around the Victory Fort for a little while supervising the youth ministry, but I didn’t expect that I’ll be seeing you more often.

I was not able to attend the next two Sundays after I saw you. And when I attended the 10am service on the 15^th of May, you were there. And Pastor J announced that you would be staying for good. I was delighted that I will have more chances of seeing you.

I admit I have a crush on you the very first day that I saw you and until now. Maybe that’s what they called, or maybe what I called, crush on the first sight. You charmed me.

I was born and raised in an active Christian family (or should I say clan), but I’ve never thought nor have it crossed my mind to have a crush with a pastor. Not until I saw you.

From then on, I always hoped and prayed that you are the one God has destined for me; that one day you would notice me and maybe we can start as good friends; and I hope someday you will read this blog with me by your side.

M-O-T-I-V-A-T-I-O-N where are you now?

It hasn’t been that long since I started working with my current company. I never thought that I would feel this laziness and boredom so early.

In my previous company it took me a year before I felt this way. But here it only took me less than six months.

Every day, I have to drag myself to get out of the bed and go to work. I no longer have any motivations. Even if I think of money and my salary, it’s still not enough to push me to get up and go to work. I really don’t know what had happened to me, but I’m just so tired of this work. I am so over with the call centre.

For the record, I don’t have anything against the company or the people I work with. Everyone that I work with my previous or my current company was nice. There were instances that they have become the only reason why I am staying with the company.

I am not rich; I don’t have any savings either. My family don’t support me financially, but I really wanna quit this job. I know, this is not want I want and I know this is not where I should be.  I no longer want to be stuck in the four corners of my station, with my headsets on, listening for people venting out and answering the same questions. I don’t want to be in a work where I sit for rest of the day and for the rest of the week.

Production is my life. The outside world is my station. That is where I should be. Passion is my motivation.

Deferred Dreams

When I was young, I thought everything was so simple and easy. But once I got out of the real world, I realized life isn’t that easy as what I perceived it.

During the college years, I started to dream BIG! I dreamed that I will be able to get into the job that I wanted, a radio DJ or an event planner or a cameraman or a photographer or a location manager and the least that I wanted, just to be in the production field or anything that is in-line with my course.

But life is too tough; I don’t have any choice but to be employed to a job that can pay my bills, CALL CENTER AGENT. This is the only industry that can support me financially and this is the only industry that has fast and easy employment process. But this isn’t the job that I want.

After graduation, I said that I’ll just try this for maybe a year and after that then I can be in the job that I want. But it wasn’t that easy, job openings and job offers in the production industry is too stiff and rare. There are openings, but they require at least a year of experience, in which I don’t have since I was stuck at the four corners of my station with my headsets on.

At first, I thought being a call centre agent was quite easy, but I was wrong. This is a really tough job. You talked to a lot of people and dealing with different type of people. Finding solutions for someone else problems. This is a challenging job, but everything becomes a routine as time passes. You were asked for the same questions and you answered them with the same answer. You keep on explaining things over and over again.  It’s not that I am mocking the call centre, but that’s the reality. You started to get bored with it, lose your motivation and all that and you started to look for something that you really want.

I guess this is what happens when you are still young and single and you started to realize that you no longer like what you are doing. You started to look for the things that you love to do. You wanted to work doing the things that you are passionate for.

At this point no matter how I badly want to leave the BPO industry, as long as I have huge bills that I have to pay, I have to stick with this industry and put my dreams aside. I don’t know how long I will be putting my dream job on the side, but I hope it won’t be that long; that it will not come to a point that it is already too late.

Up and Away

Just few minutes more and it’s my off again. And this weekend will be so much fun ‘coz finally the long waited team building is now for real.

Me and my team mates and of course our dearest TL will be heading North today after shift. Baguio… here we come!

It’s about time that we all have good break over the weekend. It’s been very stressful for the past few months. Aside from that, it’s a perfect timing for us to celebrate our team’s regularization day! Yipee!

We will be staying at a colleague’s house there, so accommodation is free. TL also made secret itinerary and that’s makes me more excited! This will be all fun get a way for us. This is our team’s first team bonding out of town, afar from all the hassle and bustle of Manila.

MCF

MCF stands for McDonald’s Coke float and Fries or simply MY COMFORT FOOD.  J

I’m not so sure if everyone has their own comfort food, but for me McDonald’s Coke float and fries has been my comfort food since college. Whenever I’m sad, frustrated, depressed or I just want to treat myself, soda float and fries were there for me! J

I don’t know why but there’s something with these foods that satisfies me. I can go with any fries; I’m so in love with French guys, I mean French fries. J But with soda float, I prefer the soda float from McDonald’s. Coke float or the flavoured Sprite float is fine as long it’s from McDonald’s. For me they have the most tasteful and delicious soda float in town! I’ve tried the one from Jollibee and KFC but I didn’t like it.

I have these weird way of eating fries and Mc Float. For the French fries, instead of dipping it a ketchup or gravy sauce, I would rather dip in on the sundae on the float. Afterwards, I will eat the sundae first on the float, then when there’s only few left from the sundae I’ll mix it with the soda. TASTES GOOD! YUMMY! J

I also made it as a sign from God when it comes to destined one for me. I said that, if the person that will be courting me found out without me or my friends mentioning it to him, that these are the only foods that make me happy, then he is the right one.

Green and Violet and PINK

This blog will be all about the company I worked with and the one I am currently working with. Due to privacy reasons, let’s put like a code name for them. J Let’s label my previous company with Green and my new one Pink.  I won’t tell why. J

I worked for almost a year and a half with Green and it was great, because the environment and people were friendly.  But the only thing I don’t like about it was the night shifts and weekend work day. I don’t have my social life anymore. I don’t get to spend much time with friends and family. Plus the product is a bit stressful.

People around me said that I was lucky because the company was friendly and that I would never find another company that has the same vibe. And before leaving the company, I admit that I had fears that I might land in a company that is a complete opposite of Green. But I was wrong.

It’s been almost 6 months since I started working with Pink and I should say I didn’t expected that it’ll be like this. Pink was really different with Green, in a good way tho. The people and environment here are the same with Green, nice and friendly. But I should say I have more fun here. Account is less stressful and laid back. You have balance with your social life and work life. You get to enjoy and spend time with your family and friends without having to BEG or COMPETE for a Sat-Sun off.  You get to hang along with the all the people here, from the most top managers to the other agents from the other accounts. Managers are very visible and very hands-on, even their counterpart offshore. And one thing that I really like, especially in the training phase was, the culture trainer. In some company, they would just get some local who is good and knows a lot about English or the country, but never been there. Here, the culture trainer is imported from their country. If you have any questions about the cultural differences or just anything about the culture, the people or the country, you can get the answers first hand base on real experiences from someone who lives and been there not just base on books or some modules.

So far, I’m still enjoying my stay here, with the company and its perks, the account and the people I work with. Though, I am so eager to get out of the BPO industry ASAP, the people in this company made me stay here for little longer. J

Graduated from CANDY

Ate Mhaye and I were out in the supermarket to do her last minute Pinoy-made-grocery-shopping before going back to AU and I saw the new issue of Candy magazine with Blake Lively on the cover.

In my high school and college days, I found every article in the magazine very interesting. I read it from cover to cover.  But now it seems that my interests have already evolved. I scanned through the articles and only one article caught my attention, the article about Blake Lively of course.

After a few scans on the magazine, I’ve noticed that most of the articles on it are no longer relevant for my age. I have come to realized that I have matured in some ways (in SOME ways only, no violent reactionsJ).

Maybe I should start to accept that I am a grown up now and Candy magazine is no longer applicable for me. I should accept that I need to graduate from the teenie-weenie-magazines.

And I'm ALL ALONE...

TGIF and it is my last day for my working days this week. It was a very tough week. I was late almost every day (I thank God I was on time last Thursday). Shame on me!

I am all alone today. My seat mates weren’t around today. Aaron’s on RD, Maan on SL, JE on suspension and Kuya Eric on LWOP. Most of the officemates I usually talk was on the far side of floor.

So here I am, left with my computer and my blog.  I guess I’ll be blogging a lot for the rest of the day. Especially if it is idle.

The Last Song Movie

Just a few days ago while riding RoRo, I decided to watch a movie on my laptop and I ended up choosing “The Last Song Movie” ‘coz I haven’t seen it yet plus the fact that it was based on a novel written by one of my fave author, Nicholas Sparks.

Someone has told me already that it was an all good movie, (well it’s no doubt because the novel was written by a best-seller author). It was really a good movie. I was crying most of the time and can’t help the tears falling on my cheeks.

It was about a father-and-daughter-relationship. It really touched my heart because; I am very close to my father and there was a time in my life that I was about to lose him forever.

The daughter was very close to her dad, not until her parents got divorced and her dad left them. She started to be stubborn and rebellious and stopped playing the piano, which was something that she shares interest with him. One summer, she was forced to spend it with her dad and she didn’t know that he was sick and about to die. So she was so harsh and hard to him. But she later on started to open up to him when she met and fall in love with a guy in her dad’s town and she has no one left to talk to, except him. While staying with her dad, she found out that the town people, including her dad, were thinking that her dad was the suspect for burning the old chapel in town. As her summer romance is going so well, she was surprised when she found out that her dad was so sick and has few more months to live. She felt so devastated and felt so guilty for everything she did to him. She then decided to stay with him and take care of him. Later on, she found out that her dad was not the person who burnt the chapel, but it was her boyfriend’s long time friend and her beau knew this all along. She got angry and pushed him out of her life. While spending few more weeks with her dad, she saw that he was trying to finish a self-composed song for her. He couldn’t finish it anymore because of his illness and his fingers can no longer play the piano. She then decided to finish the song. Once she’s done with it, she then found her dad dead at the balcony.

Nicholas Sparks never fails to make me cry. As cry like a baby. And one thing he never fail to do on his novels, is to kill at least one character at the end.

I’ll give to two-thumbs-up for The Last Song movie. I’ll make sure that I’ll let my future kids watch this movie. You should watch this with your dad.

Likes VS Dislikes

I am not a big fan of Miley Cyrus, but I can’t deny the fact that the girl is all so talented. She sings very well and acts well too.

Actually, I always caught myself singing along with her songs “The Climb” (which by the way is one of my favourite songs) and “Party in the USA”. And just recently I saw one of her movie, “The Last Song” and I should admit she’s a good actress.

Maybe I do like her as Miley Cyrus, the talented young pop star, but I strongly do not like her when she is Miley Cyrus the rebellious-slash-liberated-slash-daring-slash-seductively-sexy-wannabe showing up on pictures from paparazzi and some live shows.

No offense to the Miley Cyrus fans out there, but that is just how see her. And I hope she wouldn’t end up like my previous pop idols, Britney Spears and Lindsay Lohan. They are really good in their craft but faded in the lime light because of the wrong choice of people to be with and the wrong choice of path to take.

It isn’t too late for Miley to change the path. She’ll be better if she won’t rush into growing up and going into the extremes. She is still young. I’ll be happy to see her following the Hillary Duff’s path, still famous, glamorous, settled and contented and no too much drama in her life.